Saturday, August 22, 2009

Sentimental Saturday

Blame it on my rising hormone levels.

Blame it on my pregnancy and how tired I am today.

Blame it on anything you want...but today, I'm in a sentimental mood.

It started this morning while I was on my facebook. A comment was made, not to me, but to someone else about missing them. It got me thinking about ALL the friends I have that I don't get to see.

Then, the morning got worse. I started to wonder, How is ......... doing? Haven't talked to them in a LONG time. Facebook has a wonderful way of connecting you to people of your past, yet, you still don't ALWAYS feel connected. I started looking at people's pictures, and their lives now. Without me. And I without them.

When did it happen? How did it happen? How can you live with your dearest of friends for 5 years...see them everyday, sit with them in chapel, and hang out with them at night, and go to 3 years without talking? Or worse, hear through the grapevine they got married, had a baby, or moved to Japan. (None of my friends did that, for the record)

I treasure my friends. They mean the world to me. I have LOTS of friends. Tons, in fact, all over this world. Somedays, it doesn't bother me that we don't see each other, other times, like today, I get sad and want to play Michael W. Smith's FRIENDS and look through sappy old pics and wish for days gone by.

My hardest moment of truth came at lunch when I asked my hushand, "Why do you think you have friends for a season?" You know what I'm talking about, the ones you went through some deep things with, shared everything for a season, and now, that season is over and you both moved on.

Do they remember me the way I remember them? Do they look back with fond memories and smile becaues it happened? Do they remember our inside jokes and the secrets we shared? Do they ever have days like this?

I have requested my mansion to be built near some of my friends that on earth live far away...

......til then......"a lifetime's not to long to live as friends.."


Jamie Willow said...

very sentimental and so true. good thoughts dear, glad we are "connected" via the internet...real life paths will more likely cross sometime because of it :)

Rae Nolt said...

Jamie...glad we are connected too! :) Hope one day I get to meet that cute baby J of yours! :)

Ruth Ann said...

Rachel!! you have got me being sentimental now.. I am thinking about all my friends now and wondering which ones will be the ones that will be friends for a season and which ones will be friends for life!! Love you much and will enjoy every moment with my friends! thanks for being a friend!

Burkinator said...

Being in MSP this past week+ had me all over the place. Thought of you a several times, actually, while I was dragging Tim around NCU.